i guess this is a long post, really.

well, its bloody 6 am and i cant sleep. guess im really moody. like fucking hell !!

Of all the days, i decided to go town today, guess who i saw? It bloody make me stress up, my heart skipped a beat. Went back to long john sliver and almost pulled my hair out. People asked me why , all i can say is " WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE?!!"

yes, what am i doing at town in the middle of night? Dont ask me why either.

Again, im supposed to drink with ivan and clique at palm gardens. Again, i ask myself, " WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?! " ok.. nevermind, i did the dumbest thing of texting, and again, i asked myself " WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?!" thats the last fuck i ever ask myself anyway. Im soooo fuckup seriously, if i can ever find someone to go down these bloody road with me, im gladly to hold your hand, whoever, a girl, lesbian, a gay , you named it.

The things you said, i still remember, what theee fuck am i thinking? WHY i always get myself so fuckup anyway ? i think i owe these people something in the past. OHHHHMYYYGOOODDD.

i think i just met the wrong people at the wrong timing.

IF YOU READ THIS POST, means you care. thanks dude.

i got myself drunk a few nights before, im sooo happy, not quite actually, cause my mind is in the state of self-denial. HA. just a swirl and pool of vomit.

all that i do, it comes back to me. MAN, how i wish im just a plain jane who lives in the kampung area . blahblah. YOU SUCKS LAAAA.

im SOOO BLOOODDDYYY MOOODDDYYY. period 2nd day, PMS,

this is the reason why.

I HATE YOU PERIOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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